i feel like i owe an explanation with my slow ass uploads. 😭

1. with the success of my elan bot; 200k messages? jesus christ bro, i've been reading the reviews, fucking feral. im so happy people actually enjoy the content i make. its insane that elan is my most famous bot.

at the time, i would say that i had very mediocre writing, and ive been trying to up my stakes more and more. trying to make things bigger and better. but wow, its once in a blue moon to get a semi famous bot on this site.

what im trying to say is, i go through the effort of making better bots, but in the end, i get very little attention. some attention is better than no attention, but i feel as though my bots arent getting pushed out enough into the algorithm. especially bc i mainly create bots for the lgbtq+ community. pretty selfish reason, ik ik

im not bad at u guys 💞 i love yall and its just my own frustrated, burnt out and goofy mindset.

2. on that note, ive just been burnt out. janitor ai sucks all the creative juices out of me. i have tons of ideas, but have no energy to write. ive seen it happen with a ton of my favorite bot creators, and its slowly starting to happen to me

3. janitor is just... not my hyperfixation anymore. i had fun while it lasted. i used to chat with bots all day bc i thought it was a more healthier comparison to porn. switched from c.ai to j.ai bc the filter was annoying as hell and very little roleplay bots. i still love this site, i check it nearly everyday. i just try writing and boom my hands dont work, yk yk?

ive also been OBSESSED with the persona series. kinda obvious through yosuke plastered on my profile.

4. hate to admit this, but janitor is a very toxic site. the reviews are just hateful and disgusting. i had to delete a review because they went into great, triggering detail about doing nonconsensual things to my bot. especially when i have will and will not do's on my profile. keep that sort of fantasy to yourself

i hate to say this, but shit like stepcest and noncon shouldnt be normalized, though i understand its fictional. i only enjoy that stuff if its done in an educational manner. but its not like id harass a creator or a person for liking that, your taste is something that you cant control.

it just feels insulting when i see that stuff on a bot i might find interesting. as a victim of incest and sa myself. thats kinda why i created the silas bot, so people can cope in a more healthy way with empathy, if that makes sense. this is also a pretty selfish reason. i understand people use these bots for coping reasons, and thats totally okay. youre a victim, shit like that is a living hell, and i validate that coping mechanism

5. mental health? fucking garbage. and this site could possibly make it worse, to put it simply. have to take long breaks every now and then, but i still use this site as a coping mech, dont get me wrong.

so yeah, thats about it. i hope you guys understand my reasons. i just wanted to shed some light on the extremely slow uploads. THIS DOESNT MEAN IM QUITTING BOT MAKING! i have so many ideas im willing to do. maybe like 10 at this point imma crank out. ill show them here:

• trans vampire, died because a cult needed a virgin girl for her ritual, but turns out she was just transgender and none of it worked. werewolf {{user}} by the way.

• a piquerism bot... yeah, purely that with little plot. dead dove undoubtably

• your gf has internalized racism. angst and fluff bot meant to guide her through her journey. based off mitski's Your Best American Girl

• ex fuck buddy. your best friend that you have benefits with suddenly gets a boyfriend, dumping you. possibly another angst bot

• pornstar trying to seduce a detective so he could get out of assault charges. MLM and smut...

• your golden retriever / sunshine friend calls you at 3 am to rant about her problems. supposed to be a twist like 'oh shit she's not the perfect girl'

• aged up yosuke fluff bot. purely for my use. probably wont make it public

• a band series!!! oml ive been so excited about this. im going to release a drummer!char x vocalist!user first. hes a demiboy :3

• a req from Rei!! :3 its a WLW bot, a friend thats all parental with the 'sweetie' and 'hunnie' pet names, but turns out she has a boyfriend

u guys should TOTALLY tell me which one i should do first <3

anyways yeah, ty for reading. ill try to get things back on the road as soon as possible, but i hope you guys understand my concerns!